I've had so many blog pages over the past 4 years, just as I've had so many journals. When it came to switching journals, for the most part it was because I ran out of blank pages to write on. Since blog pages are never-ending, the reasons why I switch are usually to try something new, or to start from different stages in my life. I've been sort of keeping up with my livejournal account over the past year, but I've found that it's getting old and there's less and less people to share with, thus making an online journal kind of pointless. I may as well be writing in a word program on my Mac, because either way, I'd be the only one seeing it.
I've been keeping up with a few people's blogs on this site, including some people I don't know, whose pages I've stumbled upon through other people. I think it's time for a change. I actually had a blogspot account many moons ago, but again, that was another lifetime.
At this time in my life, more changes are occurring. I'm moving on to another city. After moving back here at the end of a summer spent in Wasaga Beach in 2006, I've had a really interesting 3 years in St. Catharines. I finally had a breakthrough in the challenge of "What to Do With My Life" and decided to apply to film school. I applied, went through assessment after assessment, wrote resumes, handed in reference letters and after all that: I got in!!! 100 students out of 2000 applicants. I was kind of surprised, but more importantly, proud. Sadly, I didn't get approved for OSAP because of past debts that had come back to bite me in the ass, and so the school expected first semester's tuition in full by the beginning of July. A fee that I did not have. This led to losing my spot because of the huge wait list for the highly competitive program, and I will not be attending Humber College this year, after all. I'm still moving to Toronto, with one of my best friends who is finishing her program there, and another girl who we both used to work with. We go tomorrow to get the keys to our apartment, and to clean it up a bit and paint. I'm so excited. It has two levels, it's more like a townhouse. And cheap, which we like.
School or no school, good job or crappy job, I think this will be the start to an exciting Toronto adventure. I'm excited to meet new people and see new places. Nervous too, of course, but that should be expected. I remember when I was nervous to move to the "big city" of St. Catharines after living in Midland for the majority of my life. Haha. Things turned out alright.
This weekend coming up, I'm going camping for a few days. I'm going with my most recent ex-boyfriend. Call me crazy, but I'm actually really excited and optimistic about it! The reason is because I'm mainly going with his friends, and he will just happen to be there as well. His friend Mike and his girlfriend Paula, Paula's sister Babs, Maddy and her boyfriend, and Mike and Todd's friend Mike and his fiancee, Laura. Paula, Babs, and Maddy have come to be very close friends since Todd and I broke up in March. So close that Paula has even told me she would want me in her wedding, whenever she gets married. She may have been drunk when she said it, and may not even remember it, but it still means something that she thought of me! I think it's an honourable thing to be in someone's wedding, to be able to support two people you care about while they testify their love for each other. I've never been in a friend's wedding before, only family. The fact that I've only known Paula since January, makes me feel good that closeness to friends is not measured by time, but by quality of the friendship. It's something I live by, so I'm glad to know she sees it the same way. I've said it before and I'll say it again: If there's one thing I can thank Todd for, it's for introducing me to his friends. It would have been a shame to go through life without meeting them. I may not have known it at the time, but I know I would have felt like I was missing something.
I've been as sick as a dog these past couple of days, spent a lot of time laying in bed and not working. It's given me a lot of time to think about things and get anxious about them. In some ways it's been good, and in some ways I know it might be better for me to be doing things to occupy my mind for now.
I kind of hate the whole "first" blog entry, because I feel like I have to catch up on everything that's been going on in my life. It's a bit overwhelming. So I think that's enough topics for this entry and from now on I'll just write what I feel at the moment of writing. Yeah.
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